HORRIED

I am so stressed out!! My I-20 is missing!! sobbing out loud

The University of Dallas just e-mailed me this morning to ensure that I have received the I-20. I have NOT ..LET ME REPEAT...I HAVE NOT RECEIVED THE FREAKING I-20 and I am going over my heels!!!!!!

I am freaking out!!!! OH GOD..WHY EVERYDAY IS SO MISERABLE. Start from the 340 GMAT score and now the freaking US VISA deadline is approaching me!

I have a reason to return to the US. Well it is not only because I got accepted at the UD but also to take care of my stuff...

nuff said...not feeling good at all.

I lost my appetite...and I am thin as a skeleton cat waiting for a random mom cat to breast feeding me.

GMAT Niche

So, for the whole day, I have been thinking what kind of subject I am going to write on my blog.

I love fashion, but I am not a fashion expert who have plenty of time to share and update info bout new dress and take tons of pictures of chio accessories. Even if to review a celebrity who wears a cute dress that we can ask the tailor to make a dress exactly like in the celebrity picture clip found in a magazine...

Uhmm...but seriously The truth is I dont have sufficient fund to fulfill my desire to purchase all the cute clothes. I only have limited outfits to appear on pictures. So, forget it. I am not a creative person either. I know some people who can make a chioo skirt from a cheap material that I thought it would not look nice on me. I think it depends on who makes it.

The second option is culinary fiesta. I was thinking to focus on any interesting or weird foods found on the street. The main problem is I do not have any desire to capture 'em with my canon camera. I am not an obsessed camera freak who would put so much effort to take the most gorgeous/significant/glorious picture of food *each* from different angles like below angle, left angle, right angle, top angle, symmetrical angle, etc...*yawn* Oh yeah, I am also very lazy to review a food. So, no thank you.

The third is blogging about traveling. Well...I don't really travel. I traveled but mostly travel with a car from house to supermarket or mall. Does that consider a travel? hehe..

The fourth is pure my personal online diary of un-exciting life with my lame pictures for the bonus. Same ol' problems, same ol' plain. But, BUT, but, BUT, I have had thousands of personal blog and none of them are still alive. I tend to maintain my previous personal blogs for 6 months and I left. I do not want this to happen again.

Lastly I came up with a new topic, which is to focus on my GMAT prep. Yep.. since I am now striving to get at least 450 GMAT score. So from now on, I will write anything related to my GMAT preparation. I can cheer up myself reading my own inspirational blog and plus I can record what I have done for a day. Not bad...at least I can motivate myself to finish all the GMAT exercise. Set the goal!

I used to search on Google for any GMAT takers whose score below 340...like 330 or 300. It totally made my day. THAT'S BAD...so I stop doing that.

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At one point, I would like to call my high school friends to meet up and hang out like all the teenagers do in summer break. I wish I could do that. It has been a while since the last time we chatted till very late night. I missed it.

Just for this year I returned to my beloved homeland. I have been staying at my parents house for a month, and I have not made any contact to anybody. I wish I could...but I cant. I am obliged to fulfill my parents demand. I am expected to pass the GMAT by the end of the June.

I know and I am aware I need to stop whining and shed my tears due to the frustration of dealing with the piece of GMAT crap. I need to work hard..

But have you ever had a lonely feeling despite people were surrounded and cheering you up to work harder? Have you ever had your brain refused to think? Have you ever had the feeling, the harder you tried, the more depressed you were?

I have so much pressure ...feel like so many bricks accumulated on my head.

I took the GMAT last week and I got 340 for the third attempt. What does this mean? Am I qualified to pursue an MBA program? My dad keep saying life is tough and therefore I need to keep trying till my last blood. Seriously? For how long, till when?

Flying away tomorrow...

I am really excited to start a new blog (again).

Although I still don't know what I am going to write. But At least, I made a revolution decision to start a new life back in my hometown with a motivated and positive thinking attitude, and I believe...a new life begin with a new blog. Confused? Now, you probably wonder what the heck is the connection between a new life and a new blog?

Here is my point, I believe that every living creature who is breathing on the earth has different way to change its life to become a better of something. Why did I literally mention a something? Well, my point is not intended only for specific human being but also to any living creature exist on our planet..just to mention, ants, giraffe, gorilla... *nuff said.

For example, someone who is bored to the maximum top to the heaven found his way to release the boredom by writing a blog. He eventually became busy responding a lot of comments from the * anonymous* reader. With that being said, he did not find himself feeling bored because he had found a way to eliminate his bored feeling.

But! Please...I do not want you all to assume that all the bloggers were used to be a bored people who had nothing to do in their life, and eventually they started to blog to release their un-used extra energy. Above is just an example...

Anyways, that is all about it. All my previous blogs are retired in a heavenly place. I look forward to start a new blog. I look forward to write a meaningful and useful story in my blog. At least, if nobody is reading my blog, I will deserve myself e to spend on reading my own blog. *ironic smile*

That's all for today.